It’s a grey day today. Bright hues of fall have virtually disappeared and all that is left are browns and the few evergreen cedars. Bare branches, ashen skies and rain falling steadily adds to the drabness. It’s easy to let the weather dictate my mood.
I think about the coming holiday celebrations and how different they have become since the family, our dear ones moved.
Lists begin to take shape in my mind, things to do in the next few weeks, preparations, agendas, schedules. They grow and take on their own shape inside me, creating tension.
Sometimes I can let pressure build like the cooker on the stove that spews its steam and juices all over the surface, smoking and smelling burnt.
Sweet William and I prayed before breakfast, naming names and seeing faces in our minds. So many are still wrestling with disease, grief, worry. Some are anticipating dates of testing with uncertain outcomes. Others have written “surgery” in the square of their calendars.
The world has become a scary place. Nightly newscasts make me wonder what we are coming to.
It’s all overwhelming to think about.
And it’s a grey day today.
I decide to put the tea kettle on the burner.
Water heats as temperature rises. Steam intensifies and pressure builds. And the kettle starts to sing. That five-dollar bargain I bought in Tulsa a few years ago at a yard sale that has not sung worth a nickle. But today, it sings.
And when the days are grey and the stress levels are high, as the pressure builds and I wonder what life is all about any way . . .
When I remember a life recently passed from this world and how brief are the days of our lives on this earth . . .
When I consider that his world is not my home and I’m just a’passing through, that it is a preparing ground for something more glorious than I can imagine . . .
I decide to be like the kettle.
I will sing.